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Hey all,

Just checking in. Some of you who were friends with me last year know that I had something pretty horrible happen right in my neighborhood, and you can check this post if you didn't know.

Well, today is the anniversary of their deaths. Matt has recently been in court and has pled guilty for his crimes, and will most likely be sentenced to life. Maine isn't a state where we apply the death penalty, so he'll probably spend the rest of his life in jail, in a high-security cell. I'm not sure where they'll send him, but it'll be far away from here.

I think… I think I'll always remember that day. I was on errands today, and was in the DMV with a friend when I glanced up at the wall and saw the date in huge numbers, and my mind went blank. I got really quiet, and am still feeling a little withdrawn. Something like that really hits home, and I doubt I'll ever forget it.

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Date: 2009-02-21 02:01 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] popkin16
ILU AND I MISS YOU.

*Actually goes and reads your post*

OH. I'm so sorry (and how inadequate are those words?). I can't image what that must have been like, knowing the family, knowing the...one that did it. *hugs and cuddle*

If there's anything I can do for you, please let me know.

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:13 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
*takes deep breath* ILU TOO AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! <3<3<3<3

It's not every day that something like this happens, thank God. I've managed to go a year without really thinking about it, but it's always there on the edge of my mind, coming back to haunt me on days like yesterday, especially with it being the one year mark.

I think one of the hardest parts about it is that Matt still refuses to talk. My older brother goes to visit him about once a month, whenever he has time away from school, and Matt will talk about just about anything else, but that. We all just want to know why, and he won't say.

*hugs tight* I wish you lived close enough that I could hug you in person. Your support means so much <3 I think that my friends are the reason I pulled through this.

*cuddles you like frickin' mad*

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Date: 2009-02-22 09:07 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] popkin16
*IS TEMPTED TO STASH YOU AWAY AND KEEP YOU FOREVER*

True, it's not something that happens often. Which sort of makes it all the more horrible when it does happen to you, and shatters your, "It'll never happen to me or anyone I know" mentality. Mm, I imagine so. But the fact that you can push it to the edge of your mind is a good thing, it shows that it isn't ruling your life.

Oh, wow. That's got to be really difficult. Perhaps someday...?

I'd love to give you a hug in person, but I'm too far away T_T I'm glad my support -- what little I can offer -- means something though. Friends are such wonderful things, always there for you and supporting you.

♥ ♥ ♥ *Snuggle*

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Date: 2009-02-23 05:11 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
Hah, I totally wouldn't mind. *snuggles* You rock. You'd just need to remember to feed me :D

Yeah, everyone seems to think that something like this will never happen to someone they love, or them for that matter. That's probably when it hurts the most, I think.

*shrugs* We'll see. He may get tired of jail sometime down the road and decide to talk. We may never know though.

Me too, hun. *HUGS TIGHT* I wish I lived closer to all of you. Being able to talk online is still better than nothing, but there's nothing better than actual contact.

It always means something. *cuddles* Regardless. I'm so freakin' glad I have such awesome friends.

<3<3<3<3

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Date: 2009-02-25 08:34 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] popkin16
I'd feed you whatever you want~ XD

Sounds logical to me. Even knowing it could happen to me, I still like to think it couldn't...the idea that it could and might happen is terrifying.

What will be will be.

*snuggle* I really wish we could all plan a time to meet up and hang out. It'd just be so epic! I love my friends and my fandoms :)

I'm glad ^_____^ Haha, you have awesome friends because you're awesome!

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Date: 2009-02-21 02:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vescas.livejournal.com
If you were able to forget something like that then I would wonder if something was wrong. Even as an outside observer it must have been/still is heartbreaking for you. My continued condolences.

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:15 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
It's a hard thing to forget. I keeps niggling at the back of my mind to jump me when I'm not expecting it, like yesterday.

Thanks so much for your support <3 It really means a lot to me. *hugs*

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beautifulfic.livejournal.com
*hugs* That's an awful thing to have happen in your neighbourhood *hugs again*. SO sorry, hun.

B xxx

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:16 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
*hugs tight* Yeah… I know. We've been dealing, but it can be hard. Thanks so much for your support, it really means a lot to me. <3<3

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Date: 2009-02-21 04:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tshapo-chi.livejournal.com
*hugs tight* oh sweety that's horrible. losing people close to us, even friends and neighbors, hurts. my heart goes out to you and i hope you find comfort with others around you in remembering them.

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:18 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
*hugs back* Thank you so much for your support <3 It really means a lot to me. *hugs again*

It's been tough, but we're pulling through. Our entire town was hit hard by this, and we're coping. It gets especially hard with yesterday being the one year mark and everything, and I'm really hating how reminders pop up when I'm not expecting them, like yesterday.

<3

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Date: 2009-02-21 08:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tshapo-chi.livejournal.com
*snuggles* do you have yahoo messenger or MSN? if so i'll cheer you up with something...

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Date: 2009-02-21 09:07 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
*cuddles* Yeah, I got one recently :) ferretgurlie14 at hotmail dot com

<3

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Date: 2009-02-21 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tshapo-chi.livejournal.com
OK!! added and i sent you a message.

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Date: 2009-02-22 05:32 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
I didn't get anything :( Is there something I need to do differently to get it?

Btw, what's yours? :)

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Date: 2009-02-22 02:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tshapo-chi.livejournal.com
hmmm.... i'll have to look and see if i maybe mistyped it

*giggles* mine is easy... tshapo_chi @ hotmail.com

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Date: 2009-02-23 07:16 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
hey,jen-san!. this is me, rin. I really sorry about what happened to your neighbors. my big condolences. I seriously hope everything will alright eventually, although a tragedy like that will never healed. it's hard mostly because you know them personally.

and then probably you'll be always asking yourself about what truly in peoples mind, the reason why they did it, while you pretty sure that you know them well. but, peoples did sometimes kept secret. I just really wish, that you're not going to loose faith in peoples around you. I wish I can be there for you, too.

again, my big condolences. take care and I MISS YOU!!!

ps: sorry, this one anonymous. I'm online only with my cellphone, and it kinda hard to log in. the log in takes too long!.

rin

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Date: 2009-02-23 06:43 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kakairupowns.livejournal.com
Rin!! *hugs* Hey sweetie, I missed you so much! <3

Thanks for your support, hun. It is tough, and we're working through it. Having comforting friends makes everything so much easier to deal with :)

We may never know why, and he isn't telling. We think he might have been under the influence of drugs, and he was unable to plead insanity when he was declared sane by their scientists.

*HUGS TIGHT* You are helping, even though you aren't physically here. I miss you too Rin, and I hope you take care of yourself.

Jenn <3

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